I think I already knew that they were, but today I was reminded once again what the power of thought can do.
It’s the first of February, but of course you already knew that. It’s one month closer to spring and summer. One month closer to finals. And of course it has been one month since I broke up with B. It really hasn’t bothered me. To be honest, I think it was the easiest break-up I’ve ever gone through. It was the right thing to do and I knew that at the time and I know that now. Of course, not seeing him has probably aided in the ease as well.
Today as I was on the shuttle on my way to class I was thinking about how I hadn’t seen B since our last date. It is yet another wonderful thing about college. You can date someone, break-up with them, and the chances of seeing them around campus are very slim-as long as you don’t live in the same building or have classes with them. The campus is big enough that you can go on your merry little way and enjoy life and the plentiful eye-candy USU provides for us ladies (there are lots of guys and granted quite a few of them are married, but they are still fun to look at! I like to think of it as if they were celebrities. The on-screen hotties are totally out of reach to average women like myself, but it doesn’t stop me from looking!!).
Well I guess I better be careful what I think about ‘cuz within minutes of stepping off the bus my thoughts became realities. I was walking across campus in front of the Ag Science building and walking in front of me was B. I chuckled out loud, but I was far enough away (and quiet enough) that I don’t think he heard me. If he did, he didn’t acknowledge me.It was interesting to see him. His hair was long and kinda scraggly looking, he desperately needed a shave, and just looked worse for wear. It made me wonder if he had always looked like that, or if today was just a bad day for him. Whatever the reason, it didn’t bother me. I was feeling great, looking great (if I’m allowed to say that) and just generally happy. I continued walking, heading north toward the ESLC while he walked west in the general direction of the library. A minute later I had the urge to turn and look after him. I caught him staring in my general direction. What I would give to know the thoughts in his head at that moment, because when we broke up he had the chance to keep me, but his words put the final nail in the coffin, ultimately ending the relationship.
It’s crazy what thoughts can do. One thought can create alternate worlds of a boy wizard, bring peace and express emotions in ways otherwise unknown, and can do horrible things like conquer others. Of course, today was probably pure coincidence, just a matter of chance, but I’m not so sure. I walk the same way every day at the same time and have never seen him before. Maybe I need to be a little more careful with my thoughts. Maybe I should be more liberal. If I think about it hard enough, will Russell Brand show up in my life science class and entertain us?? It’s worth a shot haha!!
**Rachael
Quote of the Day: “If there is any possible chance you might be a woman…”-Prof. David Hole
Yeah pretty sure I would know whether I am a woman or not. Been that way since birth thanks.
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