Day 13: I All Growed Up!!

So today I had a great little realization. I'm no longer a kid. Yeah, granted I'm 18 and that still kind of categorizes me as a teenager, but I'm really not. I no longer have someone telling me to go to class every day. It’s a choice I have to make and if I don't go, there is no one to bail me out of the trouble my absence might cause. I don't have anyone telling me to eat my vegetables or making sure I eat right. I do my own grocery shopping now and have the option to buy whatever I want. If I really wanted (or was really out of my mind) I could spend my grocery money on cookies and ice cream. I don't have anyone telling me what to do anymore. I get to make my own decisions about life, including what I want to do with the rest of it (hence why I'm in college). I think that one is kinda funny for me. Growing up it was always anticipated that I would go to college. I’ve always been bright (not to wave my own flag) and have loved school since kindergarten, but my parents didn't ever say "If you don't go to college blank will happen". I knew I would have no future if I didn't get my education, but no one had a school they expected me to go to or a demand that I went.

The big one that really hit me is that I'm old enough to be married. I have several friends who are either my age or a year older who are married. My own mother was married at my age. If I wanted to (and I had a man), I could get married and no one could stop me because I'm an adult. (Don't worry. I'm not getting married anytime soon.) That is such a scary thought for me. I think of myself now, and all the things I want to do in my life, and I'm really just beginning.

So what brought on all this deep thinking today?? I was at Walmart, grocery shopping. I swear Saturday must be couples day there, because the whole store was filled with couples. The scariest fact is that most of them were college students (all sporting their Aggie Blue) and many of the girls didn't look much older than me. Some of them even had very young babies with them. Then as I was leaving the greeter called me "miss". I've been places on my own before, but it wasn't until I moved to Logan that I realized everyone seems to call me miss. It's kind of strange and I always wonder "am I grown up enough to be a miss??" I must be since everyone keeps calling me it. The only downside to this is that I want to wear skirts and heels everyday and it's FREEZING!!! Oh well, what's a cold girl to do?? Maybe I need to just grow up and buck up about the cold. After all fashion before comfort....

I guess the point of this is to tell myself I really am all growed up.

**Rachael Rae