Change of Plans

Hi kids! So I know for the longest time I said I was going to send out my book to publishers and agencies the first of June, but there’s been a change of plans. I don’t know what it is, or why it’s happened, but I’m no longer “in love” with my characters, which is kind of a problem, especially when you are trying to edit and make sure everything is cleaned up and just the way you want it. Whatever the reason, I’m putting “David” (that’s the new working title) on hold for at least today, if not longer. I have four chapters left to clean up and they are my favorite and hardest to do. Maybe that’s why I’m so passive about editing them???

I have a question for all my writing (and reading) friends. Do you ever feel like you are the only one who would want to read your stuff?? That’s how I’m feeling right now. I feel like my book, my characters, my story (although I hate when people reference my book as a story…sounds so insignificant to me. Anyone can write a story, it takes a long time to write a book) is STUPID.I’m terrified to send it out, although I know if I don’t, I will never have a future in writing. I feel it in my gut though, and I’ve learned that my gut is usually right. What I’m having a hard time discerning is whether I’m just scared or actually right?? Help!!

I did just recently read Russell Brand’s book “My Booky Wook” and if you don’t mind the language and slightly risqué material, it’s really a good read. He writes in a way that is so personable, like it’s just him talking and not trying to sound super formal (although I had to have a dictionary while I read because he uses a crazy vocab). Anyway, I’m prattling on again. Hope you’re enjoying the rain or lucky enough to be somewhere sunny.I think I should have bought a boat instead of a car, but whatev.

**Rae

Meet Veronica

Yesterday I set out on a mission to find a new car…and before it was dark I had one parked in my driveway. Meet Veronica.

She’s a 1998 Ford Escort, and all mine (well as soon as I pay the bank haha) She looks a lot nicer than Daisy, and drives better too. So now that I have a cuter car, one year of college done, and a book to start editing—let the rockstar life begin!!

**Rae

Is the End Just Another Beginning??

I finished my first year of college today. I can’t believe time is going so fast.I’m hoping I passed everything. The only class I’m really worried about is Statistics. I just have to get a C in the class and I won’t have to take it over. I’m not even worried about the grade itself since I changed it to pass/fail.I do NOT want to take that class over so let’s all pray Rachael passed. I’m really pretty excited for my classes next fall. Most of them are for journalism, my new major, and English, my minor. I’m done with all my general ED stuff THANKFULLY!!! I feel like general ED credits are just so the school can make some money. Let’s be honest, the information you learn in them is only good if you ever happen to be on Jeopardy or one of those random knowledge game shows, so why else would you have to take them??

Overall it was a good year. I learned a lot about myself and what I want and don’t want in life. I think it’s funny how much I feel like I’ve changed. This time last year, I had so many different ideas of what college life was going to be like. I thought I knew exactly who I was and what I wanted. Turns out, I didn’t. I ended up changing my major and my minor, making new friends, and just becoming a better person. I wouldn’t say that I’ve changed completely, I’m still the crazy movie loving, music singing, novel writing, Rachael that I’ve always been, but I think I’m a stronger version of her. I’ve had a lot of experiences this year and though not all of them were good or left me feeling Glinda pink and sparkling, I know that I went through them for a reason. I know that some happened to teach me to say no. Some were there to help me become less shy, and others were just to add to my collection of things that could be put in a novel one day.

With no school, I have four months of summer to hang out, relax, make and save some money, and maybe publish a book. The first thing on the agenda actually starts tomorrow. I’m going to get a new car. Daisy, my beloved little Honda Accord is on her way to seeing her last days. I don’t really know what exactly is wrong with her, but she’s not driving like she should. At almost 30 years old and what in car years must seem like a million miles-she’s done good.

I also have the Katy Perry concert in July (I’m so FREAKING excited for that-I can’t even begin to tell you) and a trip to Vegas in June, along with working at the Fun Center (I love my job-most of the time haha).

Overall I’m really happy to be done with school for the summer, though leaving today was sad. I’ll never forget the memories I made in good ole Wasatch Hall with my great roommates Esther, Mabel, Jocelyn, Kelli, Michelle, and Chelsea. Thank you ladies for making me a better person.

This is a lot longer than I anticipated it being, but it’s been about a month since I last posted-so I guess it’s okay.

Sweet dreams and pink ice creams everyone!!

**Rae