I don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s the growing cold, the two year itch or maybe just a growth spurt, but for the first time in my entire educational life, I DON’T CARE!! Now before ya’ll freak out and remind me that I need to care and be thankful for the opportunity to get my education, hear me out.
This semester has been rough. My classes have been more demanding than last year. My Media Smart’s class is all projects. That’s it. All we do is BIG projects. As much as I try to stay on top of my research and project assignments, (They are all group projects, and for the 1st time I appreciate having a group) I feel like I am falling more and more behind.
Add to that a writing class with a professor with whom I have a love/hate relationship with. He wants the best out of us, which I can respect, but at the same time the expectations feel a little overboard. There’s a weekly article due every Friday by 11:59 and they have to be legit. It wouldn’t be such a big deal if I didn’t have 4 other classes and homework, a job, my body thinks I need to sleep and if the sources I call WOULD CALL ME BACK!
So I have two insanely big classes plus a very info heavy Mass Communication class and a creative writing class. We have to read everyone’s stories and edit and give comments. It’s probably really mean, but some of these kids should be told not to give up their day job to become a writer. Reading some of that stuff makes me cringe, it’s so bad. Sometimes I forget about Natural Disasters, but most of the time I don’t even know what’s going on in that class.
So yeah, I think I’ve hit the point where I just don’t care anymore. I know I should still want to give my best work, but right now I feel like my professors should consider themselves lucky that I’m still alive. It sucks, because I’ve never not given my school work a million percent, but I think it might be a good thing. Being perfect is too much work. Maybe that’s why no one is.
I’m doing Nano, which is actually more of a stress relief than I thought it would be. I’m sitting at 14,334 right now and haven’t written a word today. It’s been a good thing to have. A nice little incentive to get my other crap done. So we’ll see if I can survive the next month, manage to scrap my way through my 3rd semester of college, and finish a 50,000 word novel that I feel okay about.
Can I just say I can’t wait to be done with school??
**Rae Marie
